I remember the day perfectly, November 16, 2011. It was raining and I was sitting on my bed at the orphanage. I had just gotten Inny up and ready and out the door and life felt like chaos. I was anxious, I felt like I was sinking. I had spent 5 months in Rwanda. Doing what? I was still searching for a purpose, something I felt capable of. Something I could be proud of. I wanted to leave a mark.
And I read this in Jesus Calling:
"As you look at the day before you, you see a twisted, complicated path, with branches going off in all directions. You wonder how you can possibly find your way through that maze. Then you remember the One who is with you always, holding you by your right hand. You recall My promise to guide you with My counsel, and you begin to relax. As you look again at the path ahead, you notice that a peaceful fog has settled over it, obscuring your view. You can see only a few steps in front of you, so you turn your attention more fully to Me and begin to enjoy My Presence.
The fog is a protection for you, calling you back into the present moment. Although I inhabit all of space and time, you can communicate with Me only here and now. Someday the fog will no longer be necessary, for you will have learned to keep your focus on Me and on the path just ahead of you."
As I read these same words this morning, one year later, the tears swelled in my eyes as I am, yet again, amazed at just how faithful He is. I couldn't see what He was doing then, but it was in the next four weeks that No.41 began to take shape. Abby and I sat and daydreamed about what it could be and little did we know that in just a few months, we would not only see our dreams come to fruition, but He would blow our plans out of the water.
Today, these words speak to me in a very different way, but the same truths still stand. And this little dodo could not be more thankful.
Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Psalm73:23-24
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12