Tuesday, February 8, 2011
"The Will of God- Nothing Less, Nothing More, Nothing Else"
Well, I guess the beans have been spilled... I'M MOVING TO RWANDA!! I am over the top excited to be returning to the place that challenged everything I thought I knew; a dream realized and a prayer answered. I knew, for sure, on the plane ride home that I would be finding a new 'home'...for a while. How could I go back to life as I know it? Life as I love it? I found myself, again, asking that reoccurring question, "Why?" Why me? A million why?s... As I try to get this all worked out for myself, I thought you, also, might like to know...Why?!
Personally, going to Rwanda is an easy decision for me, because I have never felt closer to God's heart than I feel when I am there. I am the very best me I have ever been when I am in Rwanda, and that feels amazing. In a selfish way. Yes, it feels selfish. If I could leave behind half of what I take from these beautiful children, the least of these, I would consider my life a success. I am filled with joy by the love in their eyes, inspired by their hope and challenged by their courage. I am a better person today from having spent a few shorts days in the presence of angels and I will spend my whole life trying to pay that back. But it's not about me. Pure and simple, I have been called.
There are all kinds of arguments given for why a Christ follower should be involved in missions and many discussions about whether or not a person is 'called'. When I got home, I knew that it was going to be hard to explain to friends and family why I was going to be moving. I was on a major high and I had just seen God's love, up-close and personal; even though we all see it here, everyday, it seems it's somehow easier to forget in the hustle and bustle of life as we know it. Even as I type this, I struggle with the precious memories I swore would never leave the forefront of my mind. I cling to the pictures and songs that, immediately, transport me back. As life oozes back in, and life gets back to 'normal', I make a conscious effort, everyday, to remind myself of God's word. My why.
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Matthew 28:19
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. James 1:27
For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:10
How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? As it is written: "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring the good news!" Romans 10:14-15
For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many. Mark 10:45
And on constant repeat:
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2
New why?s pop up everyday, and maybe they always will, but it all boils down to one word: obedience.
And just in case we need a few more reasons: